Do not discard so easily the epiphanies and realizations that you experience. You are trained so that your negative thoughts are more sustainable, and your positive moments of joy and self-actualization are only briefly acknowledged.
When I observe my experiences, I see all that I have created. I may choose which lens from which I focus – that of abundance, harmony, security, joy and flow; or that of lack, struggle, disease and difficulty. Every experience can be viewed from either lens.
Perspective requires a reset, which begins with a stilling of the mind. So often you become engaged in the constant mind chatter, and while much of it is a sifting, sifting, sifting of late – a sifting of purpose, a refinement of the emotions tied to the chatter (all of which serve you as you continue to better and more deeply understand the emotional and reactive parts of your being) we find that you occasionally require a change in perspective to lift and shift your vibration from its current place on the scale.